Day # 11

I'm starting this early! For the time-being, I'm not being slammed with customers! I wanna tell you how happy spending our anniversary together made me. We had such an amazing day and I cannot imagine having a better time with anyone else in the world. I have thought and thought and I know I've never just pulled over and went and sat in the park and had breakfast with anyone... and I certainly can only have brea-fast with you. ;-) That was such a calming, relaxing, wonderful feeling that I will remember forever. 

Thank you for letting me sneak a chiro visit in... I'm so happy about the amazing movies we found while thrifting. I think I should go to the chiro more often so you can go over there shopping for us. Lol I can't wait to put all those movies on our new shelf and smile at them each time I think of the memories. 

And, I know we've been to the movies half a dozen times already, but I really find it enjoyable with you. I so love getting all our snacks and sitting there with my hand in your lap, sharing our goodies. I won't go into details, hehe as those are special memories to us, but I think you know ALL the things I enjoy about it. ;-)

Dinner was SIMPLY amazing. Obviously I don't need to go into details here, as I've already wrote about it, but OMG, we're going back on Monday... just a warning... buffet.. MMMmmmm I'm so excited!!

Last night as we were sitting there on OUR couch half-naked, feeding our faces and each other, playing 2K11 and just talking, you asked me if this was what being a couple is really about... and I smiled and looked you in the eyes, and said Yes... yes, this is what happiness is... this is what being in a relationship is all about.. It's about the little things. It's about building memories with the one you love. It's about building our life together, one night at a time, one movie or game or meal or moment at a time. 

And thank you for falling asleep in my arms. I hope you didn't lie there awake too long! Baby, I could not be happier if I tried. You are my sweetheart, my love, my Capetillar, my darlin... you are my One. I love you punkin.

And I've always lived like this
Keeping a comfortable distance.
And up until now I have sworn to myself
That I'm content with loneliness.

Because none of it was ever worth the risk.

Well you are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception.
You are the only exception!

Day # 10

God, I hate days like today! ALL I want in the world is to be home with you and here I am sitting here being screamed at customer after customer. I SERIOUSLY need a new job. I'd love to be on here writing to you about our amazing day yesterday and instead, I am using my break to try to get my frustration out.When it's like this, it's hard to get past all the cloudiness and frustration to get to the point where I remember how much I love you and how amazing you are and how happy you make me. 

I know we had a rough night last night when you wanted to stay up and I was going to bed alone. I'm sorry about that. It just hit me wrong and disappointed me because I wanted to be in your arms... but I totally get that you weren't sleepy and I wasn't mad at you at all... I need you to understand that when I'm sleepy, I have a hard time communicating my thoughts... please be understanding and I will try my best. Yes, I was disappointed, but I fell asleep so fast, that I obviously was ok... I didn't like waking up to you not there, tho... I think that's what I hate worse than not falling asleep beside you... I hate waking up and not having you there. But it's not the end of the world... I promise, I won't die because of it.... Well, maybe not. :-)

I love you babydoll.. Actually sitting here writing this has cleared my head enough to get back to that point... now if only I didn't have to go 2 more hours of crap. UGH. Anywho, I love you. I'll write you about yesterday... no worries, but I can't wait to see you tonight. I love you forever and always, my dear Capetillar.

Hey, maybe just a smile
Oh, hey, did you know that I can dance?
Could we talk for a while?

Well, I think you're smart
You sweet thing
Tell me your sign
I'm dying here

Ah-ooh, got you where I want you, yeah
Ah-ooh, got you where I want you
Where I want you, I want you, yeah!

Day # 9

Happy Anniversary!!! It's noon and it's already been an amazing day. I cannot thank you enuf for riding with me when I take the kids to school. I've always dreaded it and had trouble staying awake but with you by my side, it makes it sooooo less awful!

I think we have an addiction to Sonic drinks! We need to start coming up with new flavors. I bet we could Google some ideas!

Thank you for buying us brea-fast. :-) And thank you for sitting at the park with me and enjoying. I was being honest when I said I've never done that before. I honestly don't remember having done it, anyways. It felt amazing holding your hand, sitting on that swing and enjoying the fresh aired morning with you. You make my heart happy babydoll. You truly do.

I loved coming home and falling asleep in your arms. I love talking about important historical points in our relationship.. The defining moments and showing you just how much I love you.  Falling asleep in your arms is just an added bonus.

I'm about to come wake you up, after I get out of this warm bath where the only thing missing is you... What should we do today?!? Only time will tell... But I know it'll be amazing cuz I have you!

Now there's nothing but time that's wasted
And words that have no backbone
And now it seems like the whole world's waiting
Can you hear the echoes fading?
In the mourning I'll rise
In the mourning I'll let you die
In the mourning all my sorries.

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Well, I've been afraid of changing
'Cause I've built my life around you
But time makes you bolder
Even children get older
And I'm getting older too

Day # 8

What to say? What to say? I just left you at work.. after sitting there with you for FIVE hours. lol... you got 5 hrs to go and I think that's a perfect time for a nap. And a few dozen other chores I need to get done. I'm sorry that your mom is being such a spazz. I wish there was something I could say or do to make all that hurt and pain go away... I wish that none of it had to do with me. 

But everything will be ok. I promise. I love you and you love me and we're gonna be happy for a very long time. And that's what matters. She'll figure things out along the way. You have to live your own life. She'll eventually start living hers. Everything will work out in the end. 

The answer to all of your questions today.. YES.. Yes, I love you. Yes, we can make this work. Yes, everything will be ok. And an emphatic YES, yes the children love you.. Not bc you have nice sh*t... not bc of where you work.. but because of You. Ur just gonna have to accept that. :-P

And yes, even that crazy cat loves you. We ALL love you. Always.

Here come bad news talking this and that, yeah,
Well, give me all you got, and don't hold it back, yeah,
Well, I should probably warn you I'll be just fine, yeah,
No offense to you, don't waste your time
Here's why...

Because I'm happy
Clap along if you feel like a room without a roof
Because I'm happy
Clap along if you feel like happiness is the truth
Because I'm happy
Clap along if you know what happiness is to you
Because I'm happy
Clap along if you feel like that's what you wanna do

Day # 7

So... tonight's the night. OMG I'm bursting at the seams... you don't know this blog exists yet... but you will! Tonight. I said I had a surprise for you Sunday... but I just couldn't wait one more day! I really hope you like this.. and I really hope you can take this and see that I truly do love you. With all my heart. And all my soul. 

No matter what ANYone says, my love for you is not an act. This is not a ploy. This is honest-to-goodness the truth poured out on a page. You.deserve.to.be.loved! You are an amazing and beautiful girl and deserve nothing but the best in all things. I may not be the most beautiful person in the world, and you deserve someone so much better than me, but dangit, for some reason, you HAVE chosen me and I'm going to make it my life goal to never make you regret that decision.

I know we'll have our bad times, but our good times are just so mind-blowing sometimes.. (like Thursday night?! RAWR!!) Just the thought of you makes me smile. Even when I'm at work, someone mentions your name, or I see something that reminds me of you... and I get this massively cheesy grin on my face! Sometimes even when people are screaming at me, I picture being home with you instead and I just smile... it truly helps me disconnect from the bad sometimes and helps me remember what's most important in my life. These people try to tear me down, but you are always there at the end of the day to lift me right back up. And for that, I'll forever be in your debt. 

All morning I've been thinking about this coming Monday... our anniversary. WOW, how time flies. I want our day to be amazing. I want it to be memorable and special and perfect. And it will be... because I will be spending it with you. I can't even begin to explain how much joy I get out of planning a special surprise for you... I love coming up with something unique that you've never done, or someplace that you've never been. I truly love creating memories with you. I look forward to the next 50 years of memories with you. 

Can you even imagine??? Can you imagine spending the rest of your life with me? Can you honestly really picture us, together, old and grey? Well... me old and grey and you young and sexy? Haha, like every other day!? :-) I love you babydoll. I love that you are my sweet, kind, gentle Capetillar and I am your loving Dragonfly. I love how you love me and I vow to love you for as long as I live.

Oh, because 
You are the best thing 
(you're the best thing) 
You are the best thing 
(you're the best thing, baby) 
You are the best thing 
(you're the best thing, oooh) 
Ever happened to me 

Baby 
We've come a long way 
And baby 
You know i hope and i pray 
That you believe me 
When i say this love will never fade away

Day # 6

Man, it has been a long day. Today is one of those days where I have to strive to make sure your know that you are loved bc I don't want the stress of work and such to affect us at all... I think I did a great job of that last night. ;-) and oh boy, how you made it obvious that you love me! :-D

I know my job gets to me. And I'm working on fixing that. The one thing that gets me thru my day, day in and day out... Is you. I think about our nights.. About what we'll do tonight after I leave here, after I get you.. And it keeps me motivated. Even as I sit here and get berated customer after customer, I think of you and I smile.

Lunches are my favorite part of my work day. I know you feel like you are a burden on me sometimes, but you truly are not. I look forward to coming to pick you up every day. And holding your hand while we make our stops and the kisses and hugs I get when I drop you off.

You truly make me happy darlin'. I hope you never forget that. 

~ Love, your Dragonfly

With a little love, and some tenderness 
We'll walk upon the water 
We'll rise above this mess 
With a little peace, and some harmony 
We'll take the world together 
We'll take 'em by the hand 
'Cause I've got a hand for you 
'Cause I wanna run with you

Day # 5

I'm sitting here waiting for you to get off work. Is it weird that I like to watch you thru the window? Even since the day we met, I've enjoyed observing you with customers. You are just so good at your job. You are so sincere. And knowledgeable. I swear you've got a whole Wikipedia in that head of yours. Idk how you remember it all, but dang you are seriously brilliant.

I really do believe someday maybe, many years from now, we could open our own store. You would make it a true success.. I really do believe that. Maybe we could really do it... One step at a time, one day at a time. You and me? We can accomplish ANYthing!

And good god, you are just so sexy when you work.. Especially with those tanks on... Your muscles flexing.. Mmmm it's a good thing there are cameras everywhere or we would've consummated right here a long long time ago. ;-)

Hehe, I love you my little Capetillar. (♡˙︶˙♡)

'Cause it's too cold
For you here and now
So let me hold
Both your hands in the holes of my sweater

And if I may just take your breath away
I don't mind if there's not much to say
Sometimes the silence guides our minds
So move to a place so far away
The goose bumps start to raise
The minute that my left hand meets your waist
And then I watch your face
Put my finger on your tongue
'Cause you love to taste